Why is it so easy to move on from a five year relationship? Is it wrong of me to be unable to shed a tear, or am I just not allowing myself to feel the impact yet? Or could it be this new relationship I am in, that I don't even think about him. But I do think about him. There is a sadness in my heart for him, there is also some guilt, some anger, because I spent almost a quarter of my life with him. Wow. That is scary.
My dad is giving me a house to live in upstate for free, so Jonathan and I are moving up there to go to school and to get the fuck away from Charleston.
I love Charleston. Charleston is in my blood, it will always be home, but the many memories attached to this place hold me back, not to mention that I can't afford to live here anymore. This house I am moving into is completely renovated, four bedrooms, hardwood floors, a big yard, a front porch. It is kinda in the middle of nowhere though. But my dad is also giving me a car, so maybe I can visit some of you lovely people.